Goodbye

I remember my barefoot Barwick days during my first year at my scool. I was in fourth grade, and I remember that my biggest stress was gymnastics, something totally unrelated to school. Time sure flew by fast, and now, as a junior, there is not one day that goes by totally stress-free of school. I just wish I could have that remote from the movie ‘Click’ and rewind back to those happy elemntary days.
After our school carnival, (the best carnival ever!) I now realize how precious everyday here is. However, working up to carnival actually went by really slowly. Every now and then we had meetings, sign painting, the required 12 hours at the tank. (I was the booth chair for white elephant.) Because it took so long to prepare for carnival, it was surprising to experience that the Friday and Saturday of carnival went by too fast. Maybe it went faster than it usually did because this was the first year I didn’t even have fun time to spend at the carnival. I had a diving champs on the Saturday of the carnival, so I had to do all of my shifts on Friday. So before I knew it, we were taking the traditional walk around carnival. When Mrs. Ashford told us that it would be an emotional experience, I honestly didn’t get it. I didn’t understand how a walk around an empty carnival ground would be emotional. It’s not like that would be our last carnival ever. Only until the actual walk did I understand, I’m not saying I started wailing or anything, I’m just saying I understood what my dean was explaining to us before. It symbolized the ending of the big event of our high school career and the beginning to our end, if that makes any sense. We will never again experience what we would experience, which actually is pretty sad when I think about it.
Right when carnival was over, everyone was talking about Junior Function, which is the next big event in our school year. It’s actually pretty stressful deciding who to take and who to take pictures with, especially when it costs so much too. During all of this, we had to schedule for our last year at my school, order our class ring, fill out our NHS forms, schedule our college conference, and study for our most important year. Ah, just thinking of all the things I have to do during the next few weeks is stressing me out. I am excited to leave Hawaii and go off to a college in the mainland, (hopefully somewhere nice and warm), although I wonder how much I would miss my friends and family here. I might not even see my friends after senior year, for we will all be moving on in our separate ways. I will probably no longer live with my sister or parents ever again after I graduate, I will no longer see them everyday but maybe only a few times a year. In the beginning of my Junior year I was so excited to moving on with my life, but now I am seeing the depressing side to all of this, which is not making me very happy. Maybe I should stop before I get really depressed.